Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Hiya.

Well hello Blogger world. I'm back (hooray). At least for the moment. I can't predict when I'll disappear again. But yeah. Hi.
I'm kinda sick right now, and I've missed two days of school. It may not seem like much, but work piles on absolutely too fast for my pace. And then I just feel the need to pile on the anime and manga to top it off. I mean, I'm already reading Death Note because I've already seen the anime and I wanted to see what the manga was like, and I just felt compelled to re-watch Soul Eater, and re-read Full Moon o Sagashite. What is wrong with me?
Not to mention that I've already started so many animes from back in 2011 that I can't keep up with the ones I've started in between, or the ones I keep adding to my to-watch list. #Insanity
And then for some reason I keep re-watching animes like an idiot... Like Inuyasha, The Daughter of Twenty Faces, Peach Girl.... That list goes on and on and on. Then while I'm trying to keep up on anime, I'm trying to keep up on homework/projects/etc. It gets soooo stressful and irritating. Go die homework! Jump into a bonfire! Sheesh! I'm trying to listen to Naruto making a fool of himself hilariously!
Oh, and of course I need to keep up on drawing so my skills won't get any worse than they already are. Pfft. I'm a mess.
But on the bright side I am learning how to make Polymer clay crafts. I've already made quite a few, and am looking forward to making more. So far most of them have been unoriginally created by me, but I've done a few on my own, like my jack-in-the-box and my mp3 player, even the ladybug. I also want to try making Takuto and Meroko from Full Moon and Soul's headband emblem from Soul Eater. One things for sure, I'll definitely be keeping busy for a while.
Spring Break cannot come soon enough.

Friday, January 27, 2012

First Post. Don't I feel special.

Hey everyone who may or may not be reading this. This is the first post of this new blog I'm starting, which will NOT be about poetry, like my other one. These posts will be kind of like a journal, I suppose, so if you want to listen to my stupid teenage angst, you are welcome to do so.
So yeah, I've decided to start a diary, for no particular reason. It's not going to be a "I <3..." diary, or about how dreamy the quarterback is. I'm just not that type of person. This is just going to be about how I view my life. That will probably be it. I'll be venting, I guess.
I will bring up a topic I find myself thinking about a lot. I really wish my life would stay the same. I truly do not wish to 'grow up', I don't want to change. I constantly find myself thinking about what life will be like when I die, or when everyone I ever knew or met, has died too. And what will things be like? Where will all the possessions and things I grew up with move on to? Where does my soul go? All of my memories, all the things I've seen, done, said, heard, will all dissipate. They will never be returned to me. How does life even work? How is it that we, as human beings, can create life? Why do we bring ourselves to think about things like this, just as I have? Nearly every day things like this run through my brain. Resonating through a body that is insignificant compared to the rest of mankind's existence. It surprises me when people say "Live your life to the fullest", because what does that even mean? What is "The fullest"? How do I get there, exactly? I don't know, and I can bet you anything that the people who say it have no clue as to what it means either.