Amg. I don't know why I even write posts to this thing. Nobody reads it. Meh.
I'm going through a kind of state of crisis within myself at the moment. Eck eck eck eck eck.
Although things have been getting better, and this has so far been one of by best school years that I've ever had in my 11 years of school, I still can't seem to set things straight for myself. I don't know what I want to do, I don't know where I'm going, and I still have no clue how to talk to people without seeming pompous, snooty, stuck-up, or callous. I literally spend my whole day scowling at people who try to talk to me if I don't know them/am not friends with. Another reason I would say that this is one of my best years is that I've met new people in a new school along with my friends from last year at my old school and that kept me from practically going insane these past 3 years.
I believe I've definitely grown as a person since I flew out of elementary school. I mean, I think I can actually have a conversation with people outside of my comfort zone now, which I could have never done before. I still feel nervous and paranoid in crowds and in large groups of people, but I'm getting there.
"If I go crazy then will you still call me Superman? If I'm alive and well will you be there, holding my hand? I'll keep you by my side with, my superhuman, mind... My Kryptonite..."
God, I love that song.
<Kryptonite, by 3 Doors Down.>